Demotivational

Ok, normally I'm not a person who write too many journals, and I hate to talk about my problems in internet, but this is a problem that it been bugging me during a lot of time.

It's a situation that it's really demotivational about my artwork. I know there's a lot of my watchers that follow me due my fanarts, and particularly my Celebi's ones. It's cool that you like my drawings and I appreciate your kind comments, but lately I feel that's the ONLY REASON that why I have watchers.
Each time that I submit an artwork where I put a lot of effort and time, luckily I receive a couple of favorites or comments, but when I submit a SHITTY CRAPPY Celebi's sketch it's enough to receive at least 15-20 comments and around 30 favorites. Excuse me if the expression was a kind exaggerated, but you can't compare an artwork that took around 4 sessions of at least one hour each one with a sketch or fineliner drawing that took around 20 minutes.
This situation makes me fell that I'm buried on it. It's really demotivational, and in part that's the reason that I'm a kinda reluctant to continue with my Pokémon projects as the StreetTales and the fake TCG set, and some other fanart projects.

I don't know what to do... The only thing sure is that I'm not going to stop with art nor leave the deviantart. I'm going to continue drawing and painting just because I love it. Maybe I'm not an professional artist but I consider myself an artist. I love to read about the subject, visit the galleries and expositions, and visit sites like deviantArt or Pixiv.
The thing is just I'm not in mood to share my work because I fell some... ingratitude? indifference? well, I'm not sure which is the word that I'm looking for, just I sure that I don't like the reception, lately.

I'm aware that also I have the fault, too. I'm quite absent and lately I haven't been bringing the enough support to my watchers and the people that I watch, I have a pile of deviations in my in-box awaiting to be checked, and tend to procrastinate the replies to you comments.
Also I want to apologize with my friends like Dani-V and KitsuneFusion due the lack of contact and support. For that reason I lost contact with my old friend and first watcher WhitePhox and it's something that I regret.

Oooooooh well... I'm a bit better with that rant (sorry for that guys >.>U), but I'm still in a gloomy mood. I want to change the things but I'm not sure how.
I was checking my old artworks and I don't what happened to me... I'm a kinda rigid with the poses and I can't find my style. I think that the situation with the Headscarf Girl Watercolor vs The Celebi's fanart was the last straw.

Finally thanks for tolerate this tantrum, I needed vent this frustration . And again, sorry for the dArama guys >.>, normally I'm not like this.